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| Week 1: 307.5 lbs. |
Week 1 was quite a struggle. I was PMS'ing and I knew that was going to make it more difficult to stay on track for week 1. I have terrible cravings during that time of the month and my emotions are a wreck. This week was no different. On day 1 I started back at Zumba. I haven't been to Zumba for about 2 months. I was really nervous about going back. I wasn't sure how comfortable I would be doing it. And honestly I worried about what the girls might think, seeing me back after 2 months off. When I arrived I saw a lot of people there that I hadn't seen before. There is an older lady, Rita, that I talked to all of the time when I went before. She was so excited to see me, and so was Lucy, the instructor. Once the class started I quickly realized I had basically lost all of the progress that I had made. I could not believe how hard it was! I was so stiff. But once it was over I felt so glad that I had come back, and I was kicking myself for not coming back sooner! I went back on Wed night and it was a lot easier. Don't get me wrong, it was still a killer work out, but I felt as if I was able to do a lot more. So I am hoping to be back to where I was sooner than later.
I had Rita take my picture after Zumba on my first day back.
(My sister and I both got these shirts at JC Penny's after Christmas)
On Tues. night I stayed home after work and started watching an episode of my 600lb life. I have seen this show before and I feel like I can really relate to the people on the shows. I am blaming it on hormones, but this episode really hit home and I couldn't stop thinking about it for the next few days. I remember walking to the bathroom at work one day last week and thinking about how I must look just like the lady from the episode. I just got so down about my size, I was a mess. That just made it even harder to stay on track. Another thing that I struggled big time with this week was the scale! I am obsessed with the scale, as usual. One day I was up 3 lbs and the next I was up 5 lbs!! I couldn't believe it. I had done everything perfect up to that point. Everyone kept telling me it was because I was on my period, and I was probably bloated. I knew that was probably why, but it was so hard to stick with it. (I did lose 3 lbs week 1, so I know it was water weight.)
My eating for week 1 was really good, until the weekend. During the week I was really motivated and I got the girls I work with involved. I decided to bring my quesadilla maker in and we had quesadillas several days. I had plenty of chopped veggies and lean turkey, and used low carb or whole wheat taco shells. They were a big hit! During week 1 I looked back and realized I had lower calorie meals and did a lot of snacking. I decided next week I am going to try the opposite. Most of the snacks that I have been having are those fiber bars or 100 calorie snack packs. Those are all ok but I have always had a problem with portion control and I can hardly eat just 1 pack. On my next grocery trip I am not buying any more of those items. I will eat more fruits and veggies for snacks.
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| This was what my desk looked like all week at lunch time. |
This past weekend was very trying. Work has been very hectic for more than one reason and that had my nerves on edge. I always enjoy my time with Abbie (my niece) and usually her little brother and sister are with her, so I thought I'd have her spend the night, just her. So Friday after work I picked her up and we had dinner at my sister's house. My sister, Kerri, had invited me over to try some new recipes she was making. She had never had salmon before and her husband won't eat it so I was happy to have dinner with them! I love that Abbie is not picky at all, she was more than happy to eat our healthy dinner. Kerri made salmon and roasted veggies. Kerri doesn't live real close by so by the time I picked Abbie up and we got out there it was after 7. I was starving by the time I got there, I devoured the veggies. Everything was really good! Abbie ended up spending the whole weekend with me, and I was glad. I felt like if she was with me, I would be less likely to binge. Unfortunately, I was wrong. I had to work for a few hours on Saturday so she came with me. I did really well until we got home. I don't know what it was. I just "had" to eat. I had done great all day, and had calories left for a snack before bed. But that snack turned into a binge. I ended up going way over my calories for the day! 1,220 calories over, to be exact. I woke up depressed on Sunday. I couldn't even say what was wrong but I cried off and on all day. Although I wanted to say screw it and eat whatever I felt like, I knew I couldn't. The point of this challenge is to make myself stick with it. So I did. Sunday ended up to be a much better day than it started out. I ended the day hanging out with Michelle. We went shopping then had dinner at Bob Evans. I had one of their under 600 calorie meals and it was great. I felt so much better after getting out of the house and hanging out with Michelle. Sometimes I wonder why I push people away, when I know putting myself out there always makes me feel better.
Abbie and I before heading home from work.
(There was a snow storm, so we took the picture before we left while the car heated up)
All in all week 1 was a success. I have some things to work on, but I am still motivated and happy to be back on track!
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